WOW! IT HAS BEEN AWHILE!

So it has been 5 months since I have been on here! SHEESH! soooooooooooooo much has happened i wouldn't even know where to start. I moved, which has been amazing, yet I truly miss the quiet life out in QC. :( My new place is very nice, and I am closer to my loves, and especially my BabyLove, but ya know, cant see the stars as well and all i hear is traffic. YUCK! I am still trying to figure out all the kinks in my life, and am finding there is no real answer. Just taking it day by day i guess. things are still amazing with my love, and we are doing great! have had some bumps in the road that have made me want to give it all up, but i am not sure i could do that. we have now been together for almost 10 months, and although some situations have not changed (at all) i still sit here and go through the motions of it. maybe i am being unfair to myself, maybe not. guess once again that darn term comes up! TIME WILL TELL! UGH!

i truly have to much to talk about, just in a huge blah state right now. not really sure why either. so many stresses i cant even comprehend them anymore. as wonderful as my relationship is right now, i still want more out of it. i want to be able to see him on the weekends, to be able to call anytime i please, and to have him around like a boyfriend should be. i know someday we will be able to get to that point, and i know my patience will pay off, just wish i knew when. :( who knows, this could turn into something more amazing than it is, or could turn into shit and ill be left feeling stupid for doing this to myself for the last 10+ months.

photography business has basically become non existent which makes me so sad, i just don't have the time to put into it right now :( ugh again. woah is me. lol.

time is just a stepping stone into the unknown!